ugh

ugh. I don't know what to type in here today. Other than I just keep telling myself that I'm going to be okay. That I am going to get through whatever this phase of life is. I don't know if I really believe it deep down. But it's keeping me here right now. 

Even as I have quit my job, and wished to just lock up in a  room to not come out for a long time I feel the world whirling forward. I'm not ready for it. I'm not ready for family get togethers, parties, and coffee meets, dinners and facebook chats, and phone chats. I'm not ready to have to worry about how I look, think, and feel. I'm not ready to have to listen. I'm not ready and I don't want to get ready. 

*mini foot stomp*

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